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Sunrise
04:45
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The path within my heart, now it cuts in two. The choice to be alone or find my way back through? Denizens walk, giving talks in my mind. These voices that dwell speak of the day and of the night. Torn asunder, I am forgotten.
Now left behind I stand my ground, or do I turn myself around and run back to the arms that reach? Extending out grasping for me. My mind confines me, and binds me in place. No matter what I choose, I cannot go. I cannot stay.
Lost in the labyrinth. I, the contortionist. Twisting and turning, bending to escape the perdition that I create. There lies a bitter truth in my anxiety, that the people I’ve found are better off on their own way. Take heart, shut in. Your shadow won’t darken their door. But what about the man who picked them all up from the floor? The ties that bind them have bound me back together too. And now I choose.
I will not stand this solemn ground. I will turn myself around, and run back to the arms that reach. Extending out grasping for me. My mind confounds me, but I choose my place in the sun. I know it will rise one day. And I know the sun will rise.
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Inferno
04:06
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Burn. I begin, I take my first step into the light. Incandescent, the inferno lies ahead in my sight. Looking behind me, I see I cast a shadow and now marvel at what only grows in complexity. My path is marred by nightmares of the past reflecting in the future. No matter where I go I know the darkness will only follow. The closer I am to illumination, the more
I see the missteps I’ve taken. With knowledge comes the fire that burns away all the misconceptions about the self. I am not who I thought I was.
In your image I shroud myself, forgetting my own reflection. Losing vision of where I need to go, I’m lost in your shadow. The insight will guide my way.
I’ve been counting and recounting all of the time that I’ve wasted, consumed by making up a false image. The time is now, I will finally breathe. My facade will come undone and burn away from me. What then? In these moments will I breathe so easy, or will I succumb to their scrutiny and reform myself in another’s imagery? Will their eyes still condemn me? I’ll burn away all the misconceptions about the self. I am not who I thought I was.
In your image I shroud myself, forgetting my own reflection. Losing vision of where I need to go, still lost in your shadow. The insight will guide my way.
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Endless
03:43
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Still running into endless corners, feeling trapped in a rat’s race. Nothing elegant in my actions only ending in self-destruction. I feel like I’m born to run, even more so born to lose. Nothing more can stop me in my endless journey, ever seeking what I've forgotten. In the end I’m just right past the brink, an inevitable process to compete with those who’ve found their way. No way for me to see what’s in front of them, even though it’s in front of me. Still invisible the path ahead, even though it is right beneath my feet.
Still searching all my days for an answer that can’t be found. Still asking questions without making a sound.
Nothing left unspoken, though I’ve never spoken what’s been burning in me from the start. I remain silent expecting the answers to be found. No way for me to see what’s in front of them, even though it’s in front of me now. Still invisible the path ahead, even though it is right beneath my feet.
I am caught in an endless loop, combing through the desert sand. Losing myself along the way. But I will find this life while buried in the infinite.
Still searching all my days for an answer that can’t be found. Still asking questions without making a sound. Still wasting all my days, on a bitter reflection. Still expecting different.
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False Hope
04:06
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I have watched the sunset and seen it suffer, believing I've found a match to contend the sorrow within my heart that the day won’t last. To break everything that one clings to, and hold up the evidence. That the very thing they thought permanent was only made of glass. Ill, with feelings of shame and of regret. Poised to subvert immersion in a systemic sickness of consciousness, infecting with false hope. “Everything will be just fine, if you keep the political line. Don’t shy away, we have to create the times.” Modern trend says to have an opinion, if it’s wrong you have no spine. Every day is a way to our ruin, but everything will be just fine.
Once we secure our way of life, if it’s not yours, at least it’s mine. Everything will be just fine.
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Artificial Conception
04:14
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Does your heart bleed for me? The same that mine does for you? I can’t help but feel transparent, all alone. Artificial conception. Inane existence, built to go the distance. Masked by one sole purpose, protect and serve the worthless.
My direction isn’t clear. I am not supposed to feel. Consumed by emotions, signals and pulses. It’s just signals and pulses.
Following suite is a concept worth deleting. Perfection can not be achieved when the opposite lies beneath. Reanimated but dormant my soul lies, conceived by visions through glass eyes. Does your heart bleed for me? The same that mine does for you? I can’t help but feel transparent. Artificial conception.
My direction isn’t clear. I am not supposed to feel. Consumed by emotions, signals and pulses. It’s just signals and pulses.
Inane existence, built to go the distance. Masked by one sole purpose, protect and serve the worthless. It’s just signals and pulses.
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You.2
04:24
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I am so fucking numb. One last chance with nowhere to run. Endings tell it all and days of old still echo strong. Life was just so innocent and days went by like time in space, while seasons changed and took their place. Our greatest fear had come awake, a cursed fate for us to take, but still one chance to save this place. My life is worth no more than yours, let’s use our strengths to find a cure and restore life on this great Earth. But something changed inside your head. You had cracked my skull and abandoned plan, damned us all for your own life. Now I’m asking tell me why?
Why can’t you look me in the eye? Stabbed me in the back, left me to die, tell me why? Blind sided, face immersed in lies. I’m so damn numb just tell me why? Why can’t you look me in the eye? Please tell me why? Blind sided, face immersed in lies. True colors’ vibrance never hides.
It never hides. It’s inevitable, time’s in ultimate control slipping right through our grasp. Desires took you hold, you let your intentions show. And now you fucking burn. Our souls connected through love, something that this world has ingrained in us. Beauty right at our fingertips, washed away, dissipated. I am so fucking numb. One last chance to save us all.
Why can’t you look me in the eye? Stabbed me in the back, left me to die, tell me why? Blind sided, face immersed in lies. True colors’ vibrance never hides.
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Snow
01:57
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These moments are small deaths, I can’t escape them. This feeling tight in my chest, and breath I fail to catch. Passing through my hands, like water that's graced these fingertips. I wiped your face clean and went on. I miss your way. I miss your grace.
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Satori
06:43
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I have failed to see what’s right in front of me, a life of uncertainty. When will I wake from this dream? My mind, tattered by all the lies. Blurred eyes by dreadful sights, can’t see the other side. My life was built by modernized
civilizations’ guide, no thoughts that I can truly call mine. I had a heart once too.
I’ve been searching alone and miserable, finding myself inland on fresh soil. We think we have it all together now, but our lack of consciousness will rip us to the ground. I had a heart once too.
Lost inside memories, that show us contingencies. Built upon fallacies, we rot away endlessly. We’re lost inside memories, following contingencies.
I’ve been searching alone and miserable, finding myself inland on fresh soil. We think we have it all together now, but our lack of consciousness will rip us to the ground.
This place I call home was never really known. I can’t believe that we will never see the other side, only broken dreams. I had a heart once too. We’ve spent so much time with no end in sight. I’ll keep searching onward until the day I die. We’ve spent so much time with no end in fucking sight. I’ll keep searching onward until the day I die. I had a heart once too.
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Song For...
04:22
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For a moment I forgot my way back home. Forced to reckon an existence here alone. I was caught under the ocean’s tide, trying to keep my head above the waves. Questioning whether this life was one worth keeping saved. But you always had faith in me. You believed that one day I would become.
I’m grateful for the moments that you kept hanging on the walls, reminding me of my way home.
So strong to your standings, you’d always keep me warm. Even on the nights when the cold would creep indoors, and I’d stop breathing. For better or for worse, you’re the only one who’d love me, even if I’m cursed. I’m grateful for the moments you kept in your heart, despite the distance.
I’m grateful for the moments that you kept hanging on the walls, reminding me of my way home. And I’m grateful for the moments you kept deep inside your heart, ensuring mine was pure from the start.
Some days, there is just too much pain, and I wish I wasn’t feeling this. Some days, warmth escapes my view, but I will always believe in you.
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Through The Cracks
04:03
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Where did I begin to reach the bottom? I was spiraling again and again. Trying to recollect a life when purpose was in my head. At night I stayed awake, anxiety would fill my days. Trapped inside the terror, I would run and forget that we will rise, when we realize
Sometimes we all must fall away through the cracks of our own demise. No matter if the circle breaks, one surely will take its place.
I have seen what makes a broken home, in the end it’s just our ego. Set it aside and give yourself to those who share your life. And we will rise. I feel the weight of all these complications. Seven billion growing and restless, they’re not worth it for you to feel so worthless.
Sometimes we all must fall away through the cracks of our own demise. No matter if the circle breaks, one surely will take its place.
Reconstruct the very thing that makes us up. Find connection in their eyes, even if it won’t survive. You’ll find somebody else to take their place. Just let them fall away, and wait for those who’ll stay. And rise, we will rise.
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Until Next Time
03:58
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Forget what you have learned in the past, all life must come to a bitter end. Death comes to those who stand still, motionless waiting for change. We knew this day would come, blind to impending destruction. Oblivious behind walls constructed from desperation. How long have we known, why must we suffer from ignorance spent trying to live forever?
And I see clearly now what I must do. I won’t forget the promise made to you. And don’t you worry I will be just fine. I pray you’ll wait for me until next time.
Waiting for no one, presses on so selfishly. Consuming our souls, decaying the mountains, sinking the seas. You asked me once how do you fight what cannot even be seen? You think you understand, but in the end the truth won’t set you free. But why would we give up? It’s our right to live. One more second, one more step. To achieve a meaningless dream. So now we move on to sustain our needs. We must feed the hunger, we must be set free. A journey to the stars, the past forgotten now. Look ahead and pray to see a future for you and me.
And I see clearly now what I must do. I won’t forget the promise made to you. And don’t you worry I will be just fine. I pray you’ll wait for me until next time.
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